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Disturbance
Everything that I can remember
Is fucked up because of me
Where would life be?
If it wasnt for me
It’s been awhile since I wasnt addicted
Will I ever find my way out?
Give me some courage
To admit my defeat
And give in to the one pulling the strings
Its not that I don’t care
I just don’t have the strength anymore
I think Im happy
Maybe I never was
So I cant tell if I am
Scraping at the walls
I cant climb out
Sometimes I wish Id died
Falling all of the time
Waiting for the signs
Waiting for the pain
They told me it wouldnt happen
Id be ok
Those fucking liars
Is there ever any wonder?
Whose fault it is?
Mine?
Theirs?
Haunting me in my dreams
Death chasing
Always the same never a change
Temptress of despair
Looking so fine
Cant pull away
I give in
Floating on a cloud for now
Until disturbance in my slumber
Throws me into a wall.
A Devil In Peril
Everything I could find
Has been taken from my eyes
Burned up and gone
Seen again only in visions
A better world of addiction
Is only excuses away
Replaced in time by Love
Echoing back at me with revenge
So I call out to you in despair
You turn your face away, left bare
A dirty crack in your soul, I see
It’s there to stay and it’s me
Were going to come away
Looking back for clues
Answers never answered
I don’t understand the reason
Flooded heart and a glass of wine
A greedy rich man and a beggar
Trapped in a web of ill repute
Pull a naked flame close to clean
So I reach out to you in peril
You pull your hand away, devil
A dirty crack in my heart from you
Its there to stay, I wish I knew
Articles of Feeling
Tearing me in half
Two loves, one me
Push me up
Just to tear me down
Confusion as feelings change
All along I see
Pieces fall away
I stay alone
Just to make it go away
Never showing feelings
Never knowing what if
Maybe Im just crazy
Lust rather than love
Pull me down
Just to show me why I am
Opening my eyes to the reality
All along I see
Youre meant for me
Post War Depression
Dying on the inside
Undercover feelings
Shaking with confusion
Tearing me apart
Youre the one I Love
Just when I Think Im ok
Everything seems to fall away
Splinter in my heart
So Im gone away
Does it ever go away?
Useless meetings mean much
Screaming at myself
To make my decision
Yearning for loves touch
Jumping out the window
End the war in my head
Silence
Same old silence
Mary, Mary.
Feed me up and Im Mary
Slipped into the sun then pulled it away
Swallow, then follow
I just want to be someone else
Drink me up and Im free
Dipped in the sun then put away
Swallow, then follow
I just want to be someone else
Throw me down and Ill break
Chipped and cracked then thrown away
Wallow, dont follow
Im just glad Im not me
I miss the one
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